The sea’s been swelling
The sky’s been overcast
I see a few rocks have been spit out on the shore
It’s been a long few years for us all
Let’s just try to move on

It’s been about ten years since
We lived on the same street
I braced myself for insults but all you said was just
You left your bag by the front door

The last words I said were
"Nice try, maybe next time"
You just shook your head
And I think what you meant was
I really wont miss you at all

So you clogged the toilet
And I’ll try my best
To push down the part of myself that
Wants to say, "So you did it again?"
So grab the plunger, we’ll do it together

Hold on I’m trying
So you can’t see it?
You’re just projecting your memories of me
But I don’t even care at all….
I swear I’m gonna change

I can’t sleep because it started to rain and
It’s been so long that I’d like to hear every drop
Did you notice how green the leaves look on other days like this?

And I found
old glasses
old drawings
In old notebooks

I don’t know
What I proved then…
I dreamed I saw you and you actually smiled

It was a day just like this when my brother left us
I offered him an umbrella but he declined it
He didn’t tell our parents before he left,
And I always wonder, why didn’t he take it?

Until then
I never
thought much about the past and

I’m not so
good at poems but
I hope one day I feel like how those mountains look

So we went jogging
it’s raining this time and
We both laughed when you said "I hate myself too."
I guess that’s one thing we share

But do you remember?
When we were kids
I ran and got you a bandaid when you fell and scraped your knee
I hope that’s who I really am

Hold on I’m trying
God can’t you see me?
No, I know that’s not what’s really important
I know I can’t expect anyone to stay
Some things you can’t get back